走千山 绕千道 直到天上万里云霄
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snowlightCan't type Chinese. Internet connection is broken at home, probably because of the earlier flood.
Anyway. My heart hurts and I don't know why. I'd like to borrow a line from Robert Arpin's Wonderfully, Fearfully Made and say "I am getting better every day", but, I don't know.
Years ago, I think it was Saga who said this to Lili about me—"I think she has a lot of things, but not necessarily ones she wants."
It's like...I'm missing a piece of the puzzle, and I never had it. I don't know how to communicate with people—one of the most common feedback I got for my Chinese fics was "it's beautiful, even if I don't wholly understand it." Even Rin said that, at some point.
And the worst part is I didn't understand why others didn't understand it. My writing certainly contained no mystic message, no pretentious vision. In a similar vein, I could not fathom why did I hurt people, when I perceived that I had done nothing wrong, malicious, or deceitful. It's not until very recently did I start to even see the gap between my lens and the world, but I don't know how to close it.
《新上海滩》
作词：何厚华
作曲：顾嘉辉
演唱：叶丽仪
浪奔 浪淘 万里江海点点星光耀
人间事 多纷扰 化作滚滚东逝波涛
有泪 有笑 浪里浮沉着悲喜煎熬
鸿飞 泥沼 转眼间谁人能记牢
爱你恨你 有谁知晓 情似水无处可逃
走千山 绕千道 直到天上万里云霄
人生路 路迢迢 谁道自古英雄多寂寥
若一朝 看透了 一身清风争多少
Anyway. My heart hurts and I don't know why. I'd like to borrow a line from Robert Arpin's Wonderfully, Fearfully Made and say "I am getting better every day", but, I don't know.
Years ago, I think it was Saga who said this to Lili about me—"I think she has a lot of things, but not necessarily ones she wants."
It's like...I'm missing a piece of the puzzle, and I never had it. I don't know how to communicate with people—one of the most common feedback I got for my Chinese fics was "it's beautiful, even if I don't wholly understand it." Even Rin said that, at some point.
And the worst part is I didn't understand why others didn't understand it. My writing certainly contained no mystic message, no pretentious vision. In a similar vein, I could not fathom why did I hurt people, when I perceived that I had done nothing wrong, malicious, or deceitful. It's not until very recently did I start to even see the gap between my lens and the world, but I don't know how to close it.
《新上海滩》
作词：何厚华
作曲：顾嘉辉
演唱：叶丽仪
浪奔 浪淘 万里江海点点星光耀
人间事 多纷扰 化作滚滚东逝波涛
有泪 有笑 浪里浮沉着悲喜煎熬
鸿飞 泥沼 转眼间谁人能记牢
爱你恨你 有谁知晓 情似水无处可逃
走千山 绕千道 直到天上万里云霄
人生路 路迢迢 谁道自古英雄多寂寥
若一朝 看透了 一身清风争多少
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Date: Wednesday, March 17th, 2010 02:16 am (UTC)I think...
Date: Thursday, March 18th, 2010 04:09 am (UTC)Re: I think...
Date: Thursday, March 18th, 2010 11:16 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: Friday, March 19th, 2010 03:31 am (UTC)哎呀哎呀
Date: Monday, June 7th, 2010 03:38 am (UTC)我觉得，会为这样的事情而忧虑的，首先证明了一个过于乐观的前提的存在——假设大部分的人与人之间是可以容易地相互完全理解的。可是这乐观到大大超出现实了。
所以，没关系。
Re: 哎呀哎呀
Date: Monday, June 7th, 2010 05:19 am (UTC)Every man is an island...
Re: 哎呀哎呀
Date: Monday, June 7th, 2010 06:37 am (UTC)